[norbert]

Bruce:
Thank you. I have read those articles many times. I was stuck at denial (the 1st step) because I didn't want to accept it. Acceptance for me meant to move on, to forget, to find new instead, to ignore, etc. I do know that this is not what Steve meant it to be. Today I have finally found how to accept it in a way that makes the most sense to me. This was the first day since the accident when I felt satisfied with my emotions. I am going to explain it tomorrow because I'm very exhausted at the moment.

I am almost sure I'll be able to move on now but I'm still looking forward to your post.

C33:
Thank you for your supporting words. It didn't occur so directly to me that I've been also a friend in this friendship and that makes a lot of sense. You are right that I'm probably able to attract a similar relationship into my life again but I'm not sure if I want that because I don't want to "replace" him. But it's also true that he'd want me to live my life to the fullest and be happy.

To everybody:
Thank you so much, I appreciate your efforts and precious time very much. I'm gonna send an update tomorrow. Don't think that it took only a half day to change my mind. It took more than 5 with almost no sleep during the nights. But tonight I'm gonna get some good sleep. Thank you.