It is too hard for me. The only problem is that I can't even kill myself. |
I wouldn't tell that girl anything, but she'd have a better chance of fixing her problem.
As for time wasted... not only months, but years. That makes it even more depressing.
Now that we've determined you're bluffing on suicide, you can stop using that as a reason to get our attention. It's tiring and rude. You think you're worthless. In the grand scheme of things, that's true. Billions of people have died on this planet. Nobody thinks about them. The important people of today will be worthless decades from now just as the important people of the 70s are more or less out of mind. The bottom line is only you can create your own worth. Only you can measure your own worth. Only you can work on you.
I just have a small request. Make a list of the 10 main things that make you depressed about your life.
You can work with us or work against us. The side effect of depression is it brings about laziness and when you try to get your life back on track, you can't because you've been out of commission for so long. In a sense, you LOVE being depressed. It wrecks your body and mind, but you've gotten so used to it that you feel down right comfortable. I can imagine that it's fun thinking the whole world is against you because you feel wronged. Feelings of injustice tend to give rise to strong emotions. Now, clearly you care. You haven't killed yourself. You're still eating. Still hanging in there. So stop confusing your mind by simultaneously saying you're worthless. You know you're worth something
, even if you don't know what it is right now. Stop trying to convince us that your life is utterly ****. WE KNOW IT'S ****. YOU KNOW IT'S ****. You don't see Barack Obama posting suicidal messages on internet forums, do you? No. He's got his life together. So please. It must get boring just thinking the same depressive thoughts over and over. So just work with us. We're clearly trying to help you. Why in the world would you try to get help from people who hate you. Unless of course you're trying to get us to hate you so once again you can prove to yourself just how everyone hates you. Do you see what a vicious cycle it is? Give us a little respect here and at least follow some of what we have to say. Please don't let this thread get to seven pages and you haven't done one thing to step forward. Just one thing! Be it exercise, eating right, talking more to people, studying harder, working harder etc., just one thing...
Let's say you pick exercise. All you have to do is take 50 steps down the street and back. All you gotta do.
Say you pick being more social. Dress real nice one day (not necessarily a suit but you can if you want!). And ask a stranger for directions to a place. It could be any place, even a place you know.
If you need more ideas, we're here for you. But give us feedback on what you did.
These are not difficult things. If you can log in to a computer and type with actual capital letters and decent grammar, you're not that F***** up yet! Trust me.