Hi Norbert,
The tapes are at
Zen Hospice Project > Purchase Products
They are sold as a set of 3 for $13. There are also segments to listen to on the website, so it will give you a better sense of what they're like. The person speaking is Frank Ostaseski, who founded Zen Hospice. I found what he said very helpful and soothing.
I've found it to be a strange & difficult thing to be without family (I do have some aunts & uncles and cousins--I do not see them frequently but speak to them occasionally by phone), since family is often taken for granted. Like you, my friends became my family. Now I'm 42 and engaged to be married. The losses are still sometimes painful, but I am excited about the new family I am creating.
Wishing you well,
Rebecca