BlackWigger, let me break it down to you Randy Jackson style. Yo dawg... Noone here truly cares about you. We don't know you. When this thread is buried years from now and Steve Pavlina is president of the USA, well, all that's left is you. Now you're either going to be
1. Dead.
2. Still posting fake suicidal notes on the internet and selfishly enlisting the energies of people who could be helping people who actually want to be helped
3. In Jail because you did something stupid. You're clearly not stable and you might do something stupid w/o realizing
4. In a mental institution
5. or you could be on track to succeed Steve as president.
Now, of course I'm using the oval office metaphorically. But think long and hard. Get some help. It doesn't have to be professional services. Go to help groups, Read books about people who overcame what you're going through. Go exercise and eat right too.
Whatever your road, you made the conscious decision to pick that road. It's all on YOU. Noone made you do anything. If you want your freedom, fight for it. Your own brain is telling you to kill yourself. Your own brain. You should at least have control over your brain, if nothing else.
BlackWigger, imagine if you will a 12 year girl who had the same predicament you have now. She came to you for advice b/c her parents were dismissive when she brought it up. Would you advise her to kill herself?
So, come on. Six pages. Many more months you've wasted. Come on, get up. Life is not that hard. 6 billion people have managed to thrive. Live your life then comment on it. It's like you're ruining your own movie before you've even created. One day you'll face the difficulty I'm having with you right now. So... get up.
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