My personal conclusion after all is that I have, let's stay, a smaller amount of potential matches than what's normal to have...
But let's say I have like ten times less potential matches... or even 50 times less potential matches...
Even with "that hard" I surely have had many chances anyway!.
But when you experience rejection or lack or attraction dozens of times you create a pessimistic belief "it doesn't work for me"... then when you're really face to face with someone compatible but you think it's not gonna work anyway...
You try, but you don't believe much in it.
And it doesnt' works out either. And the belief grows and grows...
So you can doubt you can find someone you can make it happen. It's disempowering and not based on reality. But so many trial and mistake can put anyone in a mindset of eternal misbelief. It's hard to believe it can work if it has never worked...
BUT I want to remark the part when Steve says "try to expose yourself to what you're really attracted", even if it leads nowhere. I'll say
that's very good.
Before this July I never had female friends. In this July I had a co-worker just in front of me, who I was very attracted... finally (she had a boyfriend, so...). And since then I've got a lot of female friends... I could say I'm "better with women".
Not enough, I still have too much pessimist beliefs. I only wait to expose myself to what I feel attracted again, and I'll make progress.
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