Meh... I've been watching the Blueprint decoded videos, where you're explained how in social situations, the environment shouldn't affect you and that energy should come from within you. I tried some stuff out when I was out for a bit, but it wasn't much different. Now you can say I only tried it once, but I tried 'not caring' before too, and it just doesn't do it... either I'm doing something wrong or my anxiety and approval seeking is so deeply wired in there's no way I'm going to fix it.
It was nice thinking how I could be a self confident dude though... living in the moment and not stiffled by the ego or other people's opinions (which should, ironically, make other people enjoy my presence more).
In the meantime I've been trying to find a way to get chloroform. Can you buy it in pharmacies in the States ?
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