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Originally Posted by edith  When I try to change my emotions from negative to positive, I may feel more positive for a bit, but then I feel like they're false, like I'm putting on an act. The negative stuff is still there, seemingly mocking my attempts to change to better thoughts. I feel all phony and discombobulated.
How do I *really* change? |
Stop faking. You've noticed that your positive emotions are often false, but have you looked at your negative ones? They are equally false. Your confusion and frustration is also an act. I know that you try to goad your emotions on, falling into them, thinking that this will lead you to some revelation. From my own experience, I can guarantee that it won't. You can't goad on enough pain or happiness to experience any revelation. You don't have to encourage or discourage any of your emotions. Free yourself from needing positive, and you will also free yourself from needing negative.