Thankyou Acting Like Godot for your reply. Yes there is a lot of guilt over many years. Whenever I feel I find a way to unwind and be with a female it just get more messy. You are right about Emeraldbaby, she is one wonderful woman, wisdom beyond her years. When we first met and spending time together I thought my life had turned a corner but I had to learn many hard lessons about what a gay friend can and cant give. I feel that soon she will move on with her life path and I will loose her. She has put up with a lot from me and my problems. Surprised she stills talk and cares about me. Yes you are right more guilt about her! |