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straysweeper · 05-20-2009, 03:01 PM

I have finished the 3rd book and the Trilogy now. I must say the emotion at the end, while less than it had been in previous trilogies, it still caught me off guard. I'm not sure what entirely to make of it, but I'll try.

While reading I was compelled to seeking resolution. Not just finishing the book but the conclusion of the story. Once I was into it, I didn't want to stop till it was done. Looking back, I can see this in other areas of my life, and link it to philosophy of all or nothing. I can imagine if I had a life, how difficult it would be to balance it such immersion into fantasy.

My life has since been colored from the lens of the Characters of the book. I see parallels, such as the main characters duality and fragmented self. As I myself feel such duality. Then I look back at the simple reading of the book, all I have to do is have the book, light and go to it. Where as other things in my life seem more convoluted.

My goals and desires all conflict on each other, almost wishing to go every way at once, thus making anyone path virtually impossible. Deciding which way to go, is almost as giving up on the rest of them. Yet, no decision has been giving up on all of them. As well as cutting myself off from my emotions and those around me.

I am more conscious of my frustrations at other people, pointing to my own inadequacies and weakness. Still, I am uncertain how to shift the course I've unwittingly set.

I'm still not sure what to do with these insights or current level of awareness. Though it feels like I need a way to focus my focus onto a task, but be able to break that up into a few key areas during each day, without losing track of them all. Perhaps focusing on one till it starts to flow even more so.

My mom said something of a similar challenge, her doctors what her to loose weight, stop smoking, watch carbs and something else, and can't seem to focus on all of them at the same time, while being aware of the others. Thus overwhelming herself into doing none well.

Edit:
I have also noticed little desire to read the Personal Development Books I've bought.

05-20-2009, 03:01 PM	#6 (permalink)
straysweeper Senior Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: Oklahoma City Posts: 459	I have finished the 3rd book and the Trilogy now. I must say the emotion at the end, while less than it had been in previous trilogies, it still caught me off guard. I'm not sure what entirely to make of it, but I'll try. While reading I was compelled to seeking resolution. Not just finishing the book but the conclusion of the story. Once I was into it, I didn't want to stop till it was done. Looking back, I can see this in other areas of my life, and link it to philosophy of all or nothing. I can imagine if I had a life, how difficult it would be to balance it such immersion into fantasy. My life has since been colored from the lens of the Characters of the book. I see parallels, such as the main characters duality and fragmented self. As I myself feel such duality. Then I look back at the simple reading of the book, all I have to do is have the book, light and go to it. Where as other things in my life seem more convoluted. My goals and desires all conflict on each other, almost wishing to go every way at once, thus making anyone path virtually impossible. Deciding which way to go, is almost as giving up on the rest of them. Yet, no decision has been giving up on all of them. As well as cutting myself off from my emotions and those around me. I am more conscious of my frustrations at other people, pointing to my own inadequacies and weakness. Still, I am uncertain how to shift the course I've unwittingly set. I'm still not sure what to do with these insights or current level of awareness. Though it feels like I need a way to focus my focus onto a task, but be able to break that up into a few key areas during each day, without losing track of them all. Perhaps focusing on one till it starts to flow even more so. My mom said something of a similar challenge, her doctors what her to loose weight, stop smoking, watch carbs and something else, and can't seem to focus on all of them at the same time, while being aware of the others. Thus overwhelming herself into doing none well. Edit: I have also noticed little desire to read the Personal Development Books I've bought. Last edited by straysweeper; 05-20-2009 at 03:17 PM.