You're probably right... but I can't let go. Especially since there's really no other meaning in life.
Are you sure about that though? Think about it--you chose
to make that a meaning for you life. What's stopping you from choosing
to make something else the meaning?
I think it's not exactly about "choice" though. I think it's about "choosing" the purpose(s) that gives us the greatest satisfaction.
He's making me re-think my thoughts on ego. I suppose my thoughts about a healthy ego could be thought of as destroying it entirely. Though I prefer not to use the word "destroy." I like the idea of transformation, as I tend to think nothing in us is ever destroyed, only hidden or changed into a healthier form.
I hated high school. Every bloody moment of it. I was anti-social and miserable the entire time. It was worse than middle-school.
Now I'm 20, and I've been going to a community college on and off for two years. I like it a LOT better. There's a huge variety of people (instead of the same people every class, every year, who therefore have the same "cliques"); and you have more opportunities to meet people with similar interests via clubs and classes you take.
I don't do much socializing on campus yet, but I've made 3 friends at my college this year (compare this to losing friends in high school, though I have a few that I kept). One through a club, two from classes; and two of those friends are going to eventually be close friends, I think.
People are there with a goal, not forced to be there. The focus is on the work, not fashion and socialization.
But, it depends on the school I suspect. I've only been to one. I also think there's probably a big difference between a community college and a university. In a university I'd guess you're more likely to get people moving in at a certain age (right out of high school) and sticking with people of their year and degree. In a community college everyone is all over the place.
Don't despair about college. It's NOT high school, thank god. Learn what you'd love to in college (find what drives and inspires you, and you'll enjoy it a lot more) and find a school that feels comfortable.