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Einherjar · 11-06-2006, 11:55 PM

Well, I'm not sure how to start this, but here goes:

I've been feeling very apathetic these past few months. I'm not sure why, because I use to be very idealistic and positive (and I think I should be, at age 14). My life has been rather turbulent lately, though.

I discovered www.stevepavlina.com many months ago. I was really intrigued by his articles, and I started to delve deeper. After reading "The Meaning of Life" series, I thought I had discovered my true purpose (looking back, I may have been a bit naive to think that so quickly), or at least one that was beneficial to myself and others. I quickly got to work on implementing this into my life, I.E. getting practical. I picked up GTD, and started using it; it worked like a charm, and I was a lot more organized than before. Sometime after that though, my zest for self development and progress started to fizzle.

And then, divorce. My dad left my mother, and I felt... apathetic towards it. The only time I felt truly emotional about it was when I had first found out, and then talked to my father. This event made my household a very stressful place to be. My mother had to work much more than before in order to support us, and there was a lot of yelling and doors slamming. My grades and attendance record became worse and worse, and my mother made it very clear to me that, at the moment, "school was my number one priority". I disagreed; my main concern was my emotional well-being. Feelings of emptiness were starting to plague me, and I lost any true sense of purpose I once had.

My situation has been stagnant for the past few weeks. I haven't been able to find any motivation to do anything that might be considered "productive", so I've basically been doing things that bring me immediate pleasure, like gaming and hanging out with buddies.

Logic would suggest that it was the divorce that brought about all of this, but I'm not so sure. I don't feel like I'm hiding anything when it comes to the divorce. I feel a bit sad about it, but not especially. I still see my father and mother regularly, and they still talk with each other. I think it may be the loss of a sense of purpose that caused my current situation. It might seem like I'm aware of my current situation, but I'm not sure how to remedy it.

I love what Steve is doing, and I really appreciate that he's putting all of his knowledge and experience out there for everyone to learn from. I wish all of you the best of luck.

11-06-2006, 11:55 PM	#1 (permalink)
Einherjar Junior Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Posts: 9	Apathy Well, I'm not sure how to start this, but here goes: I've been feeling very apathetic these past few months. I'm not sure why, because I use to be very idealistic and positive (and I think I should be, at age 14). My life has been rather turbulent lately, though. I discovered www.stevepavlina.com many months ago. I was really intrigued by his articles, and I started to delve deeper. After reading "The Meaning of Life" series, I thought I had discovered my true purpose (looking back, I may have been a bit naive to think that so quickly), or at least one that was beneficial to myself and others. I quickly got to work on implementing this into my life, I.E. getting practical. I picked up GTD, and started using it; it worked like a charm, and I was a lot more organized than before. Sometime after that though, my zest for self development and progress started to fizzle. And then, divorce. My dad left my mother, and I felt... apathetic towards it. The only time I felt truly emotional about it was when I had first found out, and then talked to my father. This event made my household a very stressful place to be. My mother had to work much more than before in order to support us, and there was a lot of yelling and doors slamming. My grades and attendance record became worse and worse, and my mother made it very clear to me that, at the moment, "school was my number one priority". I disagreed; my main concern was my emotional well-being. Feelings of emptiness were starting to plague me, and I lost any true sense of purpose I once had. My situation has been stagnant for the past few weeks. I haven't been able to find any motivation to do anything that might be considered "productive", so I've basically been doing things that bring me immediate pleasure, like gaming and hanging out with buddies. Logic would suggest that it was the divorce that brought about all of this, but I'm not so sure. I don't feel like I'm hiding anything when it comes to the divorce. I feel a bit sad about it, but not especially. I still see my father and mother regularly, and they still talk with each other. I think it may be the loss of a sense of purpose that caused my current situation. It might seem like I'm aware of my current situation, but I'm not sure how to remedy it. I love what Steve is doing, and I really appreciate that he's putting all of his knowledge and experience out there for everyone to learn from. I wish all of you the best of luck.