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A close friend suggested I post my problem. I fell in love with an older woman and been together for some 17 years. Because of the age difference it has never been a normal relationship more a very close friendship. In that time we separate for a time and had a sexual relationship with someone my own age who was seeing her son. Anyhow I have been back with my partner for 12 years now and it is totally non-sexual. The old girl friend is back with my partner’s son and we still see each other regularly as friends only. My partner has now got parkinsons and I have taken on the role of caring for her. To top this I met a special woman and found her good to get on with and we got on well, her being gay means she can never be more than just a friend! She knows I wanted more but can’t be more than she is now. Due to all this I have been going through my own private hell due to 12 years of no female sexual contact is causing both mental and physical pains. The daughter of my partner keeps tell me to find someone to be a “friend that I have sex with” and so is my partner. My old girl friend who is with my partner’s son has become personal the last year, giving hugs and cuddles when we are alone.

Yes I want a sexual relationship with someone I can trust, I can’t just have a one-night stand. I am the type of man who can only love if I feel something special for that person.