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Leaf · 05-13-2009, 09:22 PM

I don't want to make a long-winded post, so I'll try to be succint.

Exactly a year ago (a year and a day ago) I started a relationship with a girl. She had betrayed her most-loved boyfriend (one of my best friends) and had "made-out" with a dozen of guys, or something like that, while she was the first girl I had even kissed.

That hurt me. We had different views on relationships, but I stick with it, and battled my way in it, always. We took a break 2 or 3 times, and we broke up once. She always come back to me, asking for forgiveness. I knew I was susceptible to being betrayed, sooner or later, but I trusted her enough that she would be honest about it when it happened.

I didn't like the person she was, but I loved her.

After we got back together again, we spent 3 great months. I thought "she changed." Then, one day, out of the blue, she starts talking to one of my best friends (whose parents ara going through a divorce). With the excuse of "supporting him" our relationship starts going downhill. I tried to understand her point of view, but I know her - there's something more. After being called egoist, after going through major discussions, I give up.

I go talk with the guy, I make ammends with him, and I think "I want to know who she really is". I don't think this shows a good character but I arrange with him to know everything she's up to.

On the surface, we are now behaving normally, me and her. But I know (because he tells me) that they've already kissed. I saw SMS conversations about kissing, making out and whatever (which happened while I was present) between one another. She says "Can't meet you, I have work to do" while I know she's meeting him.

I don't know what to do. I'm feeling used, betrayed, but I've always know what she was made of. Through all of our relationship, I've always felt more like her father than her boyfriend. The responsability to work things out, to understand and to support was always mine.

This isn't healthy. I know that. As I said, I hate what she's capable of, her character and attitude. But I love her. And, yes, I'd forgive her betrayal, I think.

I just... think I'm being weak.

05-13-2009, 09:22 PM	#1 (permalink)
Leaf Junior Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Posts: 18	Betrayal I don't want to make a long-winded post, so I'll try to be succint. Exactly a year ago (a year and a day ago) I started a relationship with a girl. She had betrayed her most-loved boyfriend (one of my best friends) and had "made-out" with a dozen of guys, or something like that, while she was the first girl I had even kissed. That hurt me. We had different views on relationships, but I stick with it, and battled my way in it, always. We took a break 2 or 3 times, and we broke up once. She always come back to me, asking for forgiveness. I knew I was susceptible to being betrayed, sooner or later, but I trusted her enough that she would be honest about it when it happened. I didn't like the person she was, but I loved her. After we got back together again, we spent 3 great months. I thought "she changed." Then, one day, out of the blue, she starts talking to one of my best friends (whose parents ara going through a divorce). With the excuse of "supporting him" our relationship starts going downhill. I tried to understand her point of view, but I know her - there's something more. After being called egoist, after going through major discussions, I give up. I go talk with the guy, I make ammends with him, and I think "I want to know who she really is". I don't think this shows a good character but I arrange with him to know everything she's up to. On the surface, we are now behaving normally, me and her. But I know (because he tells me) that they've already kissed. I saw SMS conversations about kissing, making out and whatever (which happened while I was present) between one another. She says "Can't meet you, I have work to do" while I know she's meeting him. I don't know what to do. I'm feeling used, betrayed, but I've always know what she was made of. Through all of our relationship, I've always felt more like her father than her boyfriend. The responsability to work things out, to understand and to support was always mine. This isn't healthy. I know that. As I said, I hate what she's capable of, her character and attitude. But I love her. And, yes, I'd forgive her betrayal, I think. I just... think I'm being weak.