SomebodySomewhere - i feel your pain mate, i am in that exact frame of mind, and have been for some time, at least 2 years, and its now got to a stage where i was so depressed i dumped my girlfriend of 8 years because i felt that i'd suddenly become a different person or want to set myself new goals etc. I've since found out that this was a very bad decision. I changed something for the wrong reasons.
What i'm trying to say is speak to your girlfriend, and make her aware of exactly how your feeling right now, she will understand better than anyone, and more so she really needs to know everything about you.
I know your situation is different, but whatever you do, and whatever decisions you make, think them through, speak to people, give it time(time is a crazy thing) before making any decision, and the best bit of advice i can give, and something i never ever did was just start doing the things you love, a hobby, something to keep you learning. Life is the same as anything else, a relationship or job etc, just think if you stop learning new stuff in your job you get bored and frustrated, the same with life, if your bored, learn something new, even if its an evening course in photography or whatever i bet suddenly you will forget this whole "purpose of life" thing, and just get on with things. The key to life is to continuing to learn new things.
Good luck mate
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