Those are good questions. As you may have guessed I have thought many things such as maybe I can teach him how to treat me or train him to shower everyday by using some sort of adoration and words of praise. I like it that you make it simple with those questions. The answer is no of course. Why am I still with him? The company I guess. I have thrown him out 3 times already in the last 2 months. Its only then that I hear any special loving words. I also feel sorry for him im many ways. I think its teaching me alot about myself and how i pick men that need to be rescued. At the end of the day its a problem as I have devalued myself by compromising with him on my deal breaker. If there was respect, the level has been slowly dropped resulting in me struggling with my thoughts to find the truth in actions not over his words.
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