Wow, there's a lot of false information/limitation in here.. like death being a "hellish limbo"
First of if it would bring you happiness "BlackWigger" then please leave.. I am suggesting you kill yourself straight up.. you don't have to do it physically you can use LOA to do it.. but understand from my knowledge and viewpoint you make come right back and not know it.. I would hazard a guess based on your viewpoint already; you have already died a few times
The hell that everyone claims exist.. is actually the place we exist in here.. the physical world.. this world of limitation as it is.. is a tough and brave game to exist in.. we are already winners if we can manage to stay here even 1 illusionary hour
I think however based on what you are writing you are lying to yourself about not finding anything exciting to do here.. even if you repressed huge parts of yourself you can open the door to fun, excitement, allowing etc.
If suicide sounds fun, exciting to you then just do it.. if it sounds neutral then that's what it is.. do it or don't it makes no difference..
It is my understanding and this may not be your understanding that negative and positive ideas are communication to you from your higher self.. by following your higher self you will be following your energy.. by following your energy you will have fun, joy, excitement in this physical reality limitation..
If you wish to know more knowledge on the "rules" of the world I would gladly offer you my source.. if you have no use for this advice then fine.. good day to you.. and cheer up!