Originally Posted by eighteyes
.....echoes of that single emotional moment, frozen in time. ..... it's as though every emotion is filtered through the pain of that original event, it's cold, tight and uncomfortable. Even what you would consider to be joy, love or feeling connected... ... as soon as I turn my attention towards the feeling, it vanishes.
I suspect you made a decision about yourself in that moment, and every choice you've made since then has been unconsciously informed by that initiating incident. You've "willed" the feelings to stop, but the decision is still running you. We tend to spend a lot of time trying to prove the decision is wrong and at the same time avoiding people finding out that it's right -- which is exhausting!
What do you suppose you decided about yourself, so that your little 5 or 6 year old self could cope with what you say, with the resources that you had then?
TIME Techniques can help you release that old decision, and your old stored up negative emotions, too. I recommend it!