I'm not trying to provoke you here, dude.
All I have to say is that nothing will improve your situation until you take full responsibility for everything that has happened. It's not about blaming yourself. It's about realising that you created this situation, and that's a good thing because now you get to learn from it.
To help you take responsibility I recommend reading some books on dog training and dog psychology. Now I'm not suggesting that people are necessarily like dogs. It will help you by making you aware of how your actions cause people around you to behave the way they do.
You are cause, not effect.
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