I don't want him back if it's not meant to be. I have to trust that it may not be.
However, he has said he's not completely over it and it would be amazing if we didn't have feelings for each other.
That doesn't mean he wants to be together.
I want happiness for us both. I don't want to be with someone who won't talk about a future with me. Either this time apart has helped him work out what he wants in life or it hasn't.
I want love, I want marriage, I want a family, a home, a happy life. I desire to be a mother, but honestly, I am glad I am not yet. I think I needed this to truly look inside myself.