I've stumbled upon another big obstacle in my spiritual path and request help from more knowledgable folk here
While I can intellectually understand the difference between nonattachment (not being attached to outcomes, no desire or fear but allowing full participation) and detachment (not being attached to anything, avoiding things that bring up desire/fear instead of working through them), experientially I usually can't tell the difference. For example, I've recently stopped being interested in business and the workings of the world, but I don't know if it's because it truly doesn't interest me anymore or if I am just shirking responsibility. If I am truly non-attached, then it should mean that I wouldn't care either way whether I do it or not...? karma / love for other people in my life and the world would dictate my actions?
wondering if I'm understanding all this correctly... I don't think I am though, because I find myself withdrawn from the world and not particularly liking it, and wistfully hoping for more excitement and things to do. Awhile back I wanted to learn and experience everything; now, although I feel more peaceful not wanting to pursue anything, it's almost as if I don't care what happens anymore, and it's a scary thought. is this just the ego craving experiencing, or my higher Self wanting me to stop being detached and be more active?
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