| | ok you want the point? here it is.
Sorry to say, but that just seems plain dumb to me, because that doesn't matter either (as you yourself said in the beginning of the sentence). It would matter as much as anything else I would set as my own goal, like killing people.[/QUOTE]
put simply, the point is whatever you want it to be. what i mean is that i cannot tell you what you love, hate, who you are because one, i dont know you, and two, im not you.
But you can. you can find that thing you love. that you live for inside you. happiness is definetly not temporary. its more pronounced at times and very hard to see it at other times, but its there. always there when you finally let it in. sure, you can die, and not feel anything (unless you have religion) but the point im getting at is that you ought to try at something that can really be something special. like your life!! you obviously have some insight, but youve chosen to beam it on something negative. theres people that could use that insight. things that need creating. what im saying is share your ideas and contributions. you might find a lot of joy in that itself. try something new. something good for you for a change. find new people to interact with. decide that you want to be happy and you will. constantly deny the fact that you can be happy and you wont. its that simple.