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Originally Posted by Vermilion Sparrow  By now I have to face the fact that I am nearly 30, and my dreams of finding a companion to grow and share with in any formative way are practically nil. Sure, if I ever do find someone it can still be meaningful, but it doesn't seem like I can have someone help me grow in the beautiful way that I always wanted, because by my age everyone already expects a "whole person" (again, whatever that means). I hate doing it all on my own; I spend more time lost and confused than anything else, but I'm beginning to realize that if I don't start to grow on my own, I probably won't do it. |
Smack!
Stop
abusing your power. You're using your age as an excuse for starters.
"practically nil" + "everyone already expects" + "I hate" + "time lost" + "confused" = your statements of intent. This is what you're creating right now.
You might as well grab a whip and start flogging yourself.
What do you want? What do you desire? What do you want to create?
The surest way to attract more of what you don't want is to complain about it.
You're better than this. Stop repelling love.