I wish you the very best Shawn. It's obvious you've had an exceptionally rough time and I can relate as I've been there myself. My advice is read everything you can in this forum and derive inspiration from it. Keep telling yourself that you are worthy and that you have a lot to offer. Don't ever let any situation or any person ever make you feel so worthless and hopeless that you consider suicide.
Best of luck to you. I'm sending you positive energy
