I am still unable to find something jokey to "pay back" your posts Waxy
Rest assured I will find something SOMEHOW
Another thing I am finding is as I am "letting go" (Law of Detachment again!!) the less the past OR future has a bearing on me!! All that matters is to live NOW.
I have read MORE about The Process from old sources, tradtional sources, contemporary, etc etc, but now as I am DOING it, the less I am remembering and the MORE that is HAPPENING.
We all live with 1 foot in our MANIFESTED world, and 1 foot in the UNmanifested world. The degree of RESISTANCE determines what passes from 1 foot to another.
Wax mate - (hope no kids are here!!) BUT as you know yourself now formal education isn't really THAT important. There are SO many stories of poor/no educated people with DRIVE (or as I believe the ability to MANIFEST) situations to take them places where they wanna go. You are right, your writing style doesn't show that you don't have further ed, and I SUSPECT that your knowledge/intelligence/ability to apply both of those is ALSO better (MORE so than YOU would admit yourself maybe????)
As Wordkeeper says, this is an anonymous board. None of us will EVER meet intentionally (maybe we all met before in a previous life

) ... but seriously think of it as a baby step.
Whatever you do HONOUR your internal FEELINGS and ignore those judgemental voices
Right now, do I go an celebrate a Scandi pagan/Catholic festival now or not

??
Any Scandi's reading this Glad Valborg!!! Mind you I doubt it, they are all probably ACTUALLY out celebrating

!!! And for the rest of you Happy Walpurgis!! Now bring on the spring time officially!!!