Boy, you do sound like you have a lot to deal with.. I'm going to quote some Abraham stuff since that's what I'm currently studying..
Sounds like you have some emotional journey's to complete with your past from the way you posted..
Let's see if I were in your shoes.. and I wanted a job.. we'll I would be working on manifesting that yah.. I would also be asking myself why I was no longer a Christian because faith in god per the Abraham system is belief in your "inner being" (though please don't get me wrong.. I'm very anti-christian but I'm just saying again sounds like some sorting out you need to do)
According to Abraham beliefs (this is logical too) just changing your surroundings does not fix your events.. they suggest changing your vibration (could be another word for outlook on life)
Anyway, in real world terms let me offer you some advice since I'm in your field.. since you may be desperate for cash let me suggest if you want to do something relational to computers and your having trouble with that job search..
You could try computerrepair.com (I usually never bother to work for e'm.. too cheap) but they get contracted work from compusa etc. and bound to always have consistent jobs in your area..
I do quite a bit of work for a company called Installs you could see if you could get contract work for them.. and craigslist is the new cheap and "marketed" friend of all persons online meaning.. it'd be a great way for you to advertise services for locals and bring in cash if your again waiting on that job..
Lastly, since I'm also in the DC business I know that Texas is a major hub for traffic and in need of computer personal (though more likely cisco engineers, linux based, hardware monkeys etc. ) you could try the webhostingtalk.com forums for job postings in the data center business
These are just suggestions however.. if your very serious about wanting that job you may be best to stay focused on that however (since I work for myself.. I can only give my relational experience
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