Although I haven't been manifesting the situation, I am trying to reconcile with my ex.
We separated 6 months ago. Since then, and shortly before he left, I had started making big changes in my life - to my health and my finances. When he left I was devastated, but I had an amazing friend, who helped me pick myself up and work through the panic and anxiety of my loss to focus on myself and getting through it and better.
I am on my way to great health and emotional stability. I am seeing a counsellor and making good progress. However, I still miss my ex every day and want a chance for us to be together again.
Small positive steps I am making every day are good, but I am not sure what else to do. I have kept my distance since the separation. I wanted to talk after it, but he wasn't interested. Now, 6 months later, he made contact and wants to talk about how we are both doing. He's heard I am doing well and said he isn't very happy, although he is dating.
This time has been a great time for personal growth, and I feel stronger every day, yet I miss him terribly.
What can I do? Initially, when talking to him all those months ago, I was in tears most of the time. Now I am stronger, but I wonder if talking to him on the phone or face to face will bring the same reaction.
I'm doing my best to work through unexpressed feelings and emotion.
While I'd love to be able to talk and laugh with him like we used to, I don't want to just be friends, I want more.
Any thoughts and advice?
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