Your HS also scrambles to edit your life plan if, through your free will, you “mess” things up and get off track.
... Reading that is tempting my Inner Rebel.
Re: Being an avatar of your higher self - I know this is probably not what's intended, and I feel a bit dumb asking this, but does that mean we're (as in, our consciousness) not real, so to speak? I always was under the impression that I was a part of her just split off and that we're connected deep down, but an uncontrolled avatar makes me think of some summoned minion whose existance will stop at the whim of their master. If that makes sense.
She amuses me a bit, though. When I meet someone, one of my failings is that I immediately sort them into categories in my mind. But my higher self is the first "person" I've met that I simply can't do that to. Can't figure her out at all.
Sometimes, she scares me, and I feel like there's something far darker about her than there should be. I just feel
it there, and it doesn't feel like normal fear. Has anyone else felt like this?