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Hello Jedale...
I read your post, and saw several things that intrigued me, the first was what seem to me to be a focus on defeat...
You wrote that you are "SO LACKING" in self discipline, that you are undisciplined/unproductive...
Please, please, please change your focus from the overall feeling of defeat, to an understanding that this is nothing more than a challenge to overcome. I'm positive that all your life you have been overcoming challenges, you are an amazing organism, you have th ability to overcome any challenge...
Focus on accomplishment, do something today, it doesn't matter what it is, just accomplish something that flies in the face of the defeat you feel.
Then CELEBRATE the victory of that accomplishment... do it again tommorrow, do it everyday, just make the accomplishment a little bigger each day, and CELEBRATE IT !!!
Eventually you will have conditioned yourself for accomplishment, it's this conditioning that is self-discipline. It will become habitual.
If you fall back sometime, thats OK, it's not about never making mistakes, it's about gradual self-improvement. You are building yourself to be your vision of yourself, visualize something great, become something great.
The ideal version of you is not a pipe dream, it is a reality. You have only to find it. Think of it like digging for gold, the gold is there, you just gotta get rid of the dirt that surrounds it.
The journey of a thousand miles, begins with a single victorious step (head butts give me a head ache).
The picture you gave of beating your head against the wall, also bothered me. This tells me you think that the process should be painful, it doesn't have to be.
There are always more ways than one to obtain a desired result.
Next is Failure...
There is no such thing, failure is a label we put on ourselves when we give up. To try and suffer a setback, is not failure.
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