As far as Sites goes. Use Dreamweaver to build, use
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Now for more serious thought on what you posted... Dude...
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Originally Posted by Fallen  ...I'm only 21, I'm from Canada and my family is lower-middle class so I've been working since I was 15. ...and I just can't think of a job that could make me happy. Yes, I want money, but the only reason I want money is so that can have the freedom to not have to work. I just want to be able to pay my bills and buy food, nothing else important to my life costs any money.... Everyone who knows me thinks I'm "depressed" and maybe I am but that's only a symptom of what's really wrong. ... my time, energy and thought is worth 50 or 60 (cnd) bucks! That's only less than a tenth of my rent. ...I'm half done a sociology degree and I think I have a amazing variety of life experience to share or use. |
Hey Fallen - First off you're 21, stop wondering about what people think of you and start thinking that your life just started. You want money to pay for freedom, yet you're a student. Finish school (Believe me, I'm only 33 and I wish I had stuck in there to finish University because now I understand) then think about tomorrow and what you need to do.
If nothing else is important now, then plan ahead, being the father of two kids now (ages 2 and newborn) I can sincerely tell you that putting money aside will one day serve more than just buying a new cool car (not saying that you want that great new car, just saying what people want today is luxury before actual needs).
You're depressed, big deal, you're 21 and it's normal, I've been there. All I can say is that you're in a place right now that's between being the teenager that has all the fun in the world with friends, and the adulthood of having life's responsibilities. Everything is kinda fuzzy... Hang in there, and you'll be fine. If you have washed out friends who harass people and treat people like ************ get rid of them, 'cause it'll come back to haunt you one day. We got rid of a friend who was getting into being an ass with people, I meet people today and they say that he got some of his new friends in trouble when he shoplifted. Happy it wasn't one of us.
Saying your time is worth 50 or 60 is wrong. Don't think like that, maybe you'll find that perfect job but maybe you'll have to work on it too, starting at 30k. I did it and today I'm in the 60K bracket so I worked at it. If that's only a tenth of your rent you need a new place to live that will accommodate your budget. Heck, get roommates. I have a friend who paid of his mortgage in 7 1/2 years and he was your age when he bought the house. He got 3 friends in, he built a room downstairs for himself so they had the "good rooms" while he was paying off the money to the bank. Easy, whatever the cost of the mortgage is put it in a account, then charge a decent rent to your friends without having them pay the actual rent prices in your town but enough to cover the monthly payments plus extra (that you put in the account). Once your term comes around you'll have enough to get rid of a huge amount and thus reducing your payment years by more than 3/4 of the time. You just need to set priorities, it's normal we all go thru it.
As far as having an amazing variety of life experiences at 21? You have some life experiences, but if you haven't traveled parts of the world with limited amount of money in your pocket, you've only experienced what most people do. By the time I was 25 I had lived in New Orleans for 3 months, traveled to Europe (like most other young travelers) Tahiti, China, and Australia. I still don't see myself as myself having an amazing variety of life experience because of those travels. Did this with a limited amount of money and Camped out, worked on farms or stayed at youth hostels. I played with Peter Gabriel's musicians, met Daniel Lanois and played with some bands like Midnight Oil after shows or while traveling in some un-renown tourist countries. Once I was back I was ready to start my "normal" life.
You need to finish school, and then work out what you want to do. Whatever I wrote up there is not to diminish you, I just want you to understand that life does happen, and it will it you one day, just start preparing now. We all go thru a "depression" phase, your came at 21, mine 18 (Mind you I never contemplated suicide or anything hard like that). It's all about what you set yourself up for. Think ahead, your folks love you, so do your friends, just make sure they know that you also care about them. You'll see that your visions of things will get better. You're 21. Wait 'till you hit 30 now that's something!
At this point in my life, I have two great kids and a wife that gave my life new meaning with those two kids. We all go thru phases, you'll get thru yours, and you sound like one of the good ones. Just a little confused, don’t worry so much. Take care!