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Originally Posted by DayInTheLife  And trust me, once you glimpse it you will not be able to hate it if you tried. |
beautiful^
Self hate is too if you think about it.
I said forget waking up and reciting a positive mantra, turning off my thinking ,
trying to think positive, or any of those other awkward "happy exercises" I felt I
should be doing. that just added more pressure...and besides sometimes the answer lies within the negativity
I found some self empathy(nice vocab dulaney) by looking at the beauty that at least I actually cared enough about myself to admit I hurt and want to heal(acceptance?). From that it seems like i was finally able to muster the strength and motivation to face those painful and frightening near unconscious thoughts. AND muster enough trust in myself to trust that i was capable enough to grab the pen and paper and figure it out. Analyze! Think! Sure the mind can get a little crazy, but once relaxed and guided with a little self empathy i think someone can figure themselves out pretty good and get on the path to peace.
Maybe the key is just finding the logic it takes to accept?
There's a lot of magic behind understanding and figuring out the WHY and being able to name your pain. Seems like I just had to do some self reflection maintenance and in return was granted some positive thoughts and trust. Like planting a seed! A little dirty digging but then nature takes care of the rest.