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Originally Posted by BlackWigger

Example... some guys called me out, and I suffer from social anxiety (not sure if it's the worst possible type of SA but still), and I was thinking how I was going to regret going out, but I still did it due to not wanting to tarnish my "reputation" (I don't have one really). I actually did well in the conversations and ****... was even glad I did go out. But then I thought to myself "well, this doesn't really matter, all these people won't really care about me later, and nothing will really change". And if it changed, I would probably still be unhappy.

In other words, going out with guys who don't give a **** about you is "pointless", right?

Very good. So the next time they call you out, just say no. If it's pointless, don't do it! Your life is too precious to waste on pointless things.

Oh, and don't worry about "reputation". You said yourself that you don't have a reputation with these guys, so doing things to "protect my reputation" is the most pointless thing you can do.

It's like I'm always a slave to these emotions, and that I'll never be satisfied with the way they occur. I wish I could just stop caring, like when I am drunk. That's awesome.

Stopping to care is not the solution.

Making sure that YOU are in control of your emotions, rather than the other way around, is the key.

I won't lie to you. It ain't going to be easy, and it will probably take you a long time to master. But you can do it. And believe me, once you get there, it will be worth the effort.

I can never be sure what awaits me if I die. But I will die either way.

True. But you still have a choice about how you're going to live your life until that point.

Even if death really is the end, then you have the choice between leaving a legacy in this world, and dying as a nobody who did nothing with his life.

And if it isn't... well, lets just say that if you don't have the courage for relatively small things (such as standing up to your friends), you aren't ready for this ultimate journey.

I don't wanna uncover where I'm coming from, at least from now.

Fair enough. You're not ready to make this step yet, and that's fine.

Just remember that at SOME POINT you'll have to overcome these fears, if you really want to make a difference.

No need to rush, though. You have all the time in the world. Proceed as slowly or as speedily as you wish. After all, it's your show.

Good luck