I'm ten days into a 30-month trial of meditating twice a day, and the effects I've gotten haven't really been entirely positive...
I've woken up 3 times in the past week from dreams of yelling at people in different circumstances. Eye-popping angry yelling with emotions running over after I wake up - completely contrary to my character, and very different then any dreams I've remembered before. I've also noticed myself becoming more judgemental and less patient with friends and myself for not maintaining peacefulness.
I trust in the positive results of meditation, but this seems rather opposite. I'm trying to let go my attatchment to the results and just meditate for the sake of doing so. I'm working on it, but it's not easy - does anyone have any suggestions? |