I have another important question to ask you:
What is the point of DEATH?
You asked us what the point of life is, so let me throw back to you that question.
You have a choice:
You can choose to live, and in your mind that life would be pointless.
You can choose to die, and how would that be any less pointless?
So, the question is this....
What do you have to live for?
What do you have to die for?
There are a couple of schools of thought here....
One school of thought is that this life isn't all there is. That this life is a mere stint in the greater scheme of life and that after our mortal bodies die, our "spirits" go on (and that isn't necessarily regulate to organized religions...that belief exists under many different "masks").
The other school of thought is that this life IS all there is. That when you die, you become wormfood, never to be remembered again.
In the first school of thought, ending you life is merely shedding the mortal aspects for some other form of life (whether it be heaven, hell, reincarnation, etc.).
In the second school of thought, ending your life is ending your existence once and for all.
What reasons do you have to die? Some people die for ideologies, some die in freak accidents, and others, like yourself, choose to die to try and end the pain of living.
But what if that pain doesn't stop with your death? How can you be so sure that ending your life here isn't going to just put your "essence" into some other, far worse form of pain? What if avoiding the pain of this life just means more pain in the next?
What, then, is ending your existence going to accomplish? Putting yourself out of the misery of this life is going to get you the same result as if you lived your life and then died of natural causes.
So why would you want to remove any and all chance at happiness to end your existence? The fact is this...it has been proven over and over and over again that people in your situation can turn their lives around and find some form of happiness. It has also been provend that your life affects others lives in ways you'll never know. So choosing to end your life at this moment, is not only garaunteeing you'll never taste that happiness that is so elusive, but it is also going to affect those with whom your life affects. And I don't care if you are a complete hermit, your life is affecting people. Your mere presence on this forum with this question is having an effect on the rest of us. Without you, this thread wouldn't exist, and without this thread we wouldn't have this discussion, and perhaps without this discussion some other lurker would choose to give up on life.
The simple fact is this...you have no idea how far reaching your life is and what the effects of the life you live do. Nor do you have any idea what happens to those effects after you die.
The only thing you do know is that you have an alotted amount of time here in this life. You have an entire lifetime to discover new and different ways to find happiness. You have unlimited options and can make any of countless decisions that just might be the decision that leads to your happiness or contentment.
The road of life has many forks. All that effort you have put into changing those things you don't like about yourself is ONLY wasted if you choose to give up now. But if you choose to continue, to stay the course, to keep taking that next step, one of those tries and steps is bound to eventually lead to healing and happiness.
It's like hammering away at a rock. You strike that rock 99 times and nothing happens. On the 100th strike, the rock shatters into a thousand little pieces. You say that that last hit was the one that shattered it. And I say that it's the 99 before it.