 Present moment awareness is boring
Hello
I basically came here for reassurance that what I am doing is correct. There seem to be hundreds of websites online talking about the wondrous benefits of being aware of the present moment and meditating, silencing the chattering mind etc. But no one has ever talked about the process - I haven't seen any blog posts or personal accounts on what one personally experiences as one chooses to be more aware of the present moment.
I'm a little worried because it feels like I'm doing it wrong; I don't really feel 'happy' when I'm present, more like I feel like I'm forcing myself and so eventually I get tired and a bit depressed.
Is present moment awareness basically something where you force yourself out of your mind and focus on one of your five senses? And then, lets say the mind suddenly intrudes with a song that is stuck in your head. Then what I would do is force it out and try to push myself back into feeling the body or something like that. Is this everyone's experience with present moment awareness? Does it feel like NOTHING is happening and all you're doing is forcing yourself into a state you don't really enjoy??
Thanks for any help..
Adrian
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