Originally Posted by Manomanman
I'll let him speak for himself, but my take on what you're describing is the feeling that your brain is just a collection of chemicals designed to trick you. You feel like a puppet being pulled along by a set of chemical strings. For example, you desire sex because of hormones. You just want to cut the strings and be free.
The solution is to cut the strings without ending your life.
I don't quite see what you're saying, but I don't think it's what I'm talking about. The "numb" I'm talking about is not feeling any emotions - no anger, no fear, no pleasure - nothing. Just being numb, no matter what physical sensations you're feeling (including sexual stimulation), and no matter what is happening in front of you. Eating food isn't pleasurable, sex isn't pleasurable, it's not possible to feel pleasure or enjoyment in any situation. Some people even numb physical pain out, and don't experience pain at all. I read about a kid who cut his arm on his school playgrounds, and continued walking around bleeding everywhere, until someone finally asked him about it. He looked down and was surprised to see he was bleeding. He actually didn't feel the pain.