Originally Posted by BlackWigger
I'm not sure I want any meaning any more... it won't matter in the end :/
I wanted to become an influential politician, partially for my own reasons (being admired by others?) and partially to help the country (I don't live in the US just fyi)
So, what you're gonna do now? Spend the rest of your life moping about the pointlessness of life? Getting to be right about that? Will your gravestone have the inscription: "I led a pointless life"?
It seems you're disconnected to what you really want. I suggest to go and find that. In the meantime, do some volunteer work for people who are worse off than you. Yes, they are out there. Forget your social awkwardness. Who cares? It's pointless anyway