I had an extensive discussion with a ... friend of mine, sort of. I knew him for a long time over the Internet, he lives in a different country, but we are kind of soul mates. Anyway, he told me that my problem is that I'm pretentious and that I think I'm deserving of certain things, like being successful in a certain area, or having a better life, and that that is a big problem for me.
Geez... Some friend, heh?
Listen, mate, you do deserve a better life. And you can be successful in any area you want to be successful in. So the next time a "friend" tells you otherwise, ditch him. People who constantly put you down do not deserve to be your friends.
Now, the only question that remains is: What do
you want from life? What are your
dreams and ambitions? What kind of life will make you
feel fulfilled and happy with yourself? I don't care what your friends expect from you. If they can't accept your goals and deepest desires, that is their problem, not yours.
It's your ship, mon capitan. Tell me were you want to go, and I'll be happy to help you get there