Originally Posted by BlackWigger
It's just that there's really no ****ing point to life. Maybe I would ignore that fact if I could fix the numerous flaws that are plaguing my personality. Flaws that can't really be fixed. Hell, I bet I would come up with more flaws if I managed to fix all of the ones that I am currently aware of. It just doesn't end. Humans are a failed race, we should all kill ourselves. It's not like it matters.
Reading this makes me sad, as I've been where you are now. Now I'm not. That's the good news. It is possible to change your perspective.
There are a few things I can share what helped me.
- Right now it's pretty bleak, but whatever you are feeling now, it can always get worse. E.g. you could lose the use of your limbs, you could get robbed, you could be run over by a car etc etc, and combined with what you feel now, it would be worse, no?
-The opposite is also true. Whatever you are feeling now, it can get better. How? For me, it was at one point deciding. Deciding that how I was made me sick and I wanted something else. For me it was changing my perspective. For example, you tell yourself life is pointless, and get sad about it. You could also tell yourself equally true that life is pointless so why not enjoy it?
- My point of view now is that life is meaningless. It's up to each of us to give it meaning. Nobody can do that for us, we choose our own meaning and live that. Suppose this is true. What meaning do yo want your life to have?
Again, I have been where you are now. If I can support you, let me know.