Ok.. this has seen some time now. I need to share what has happened since...
I have been out with friends every single moment I could share. Have tried to have fun, go out.... meet other girls (with success, but I cannot make myself want them :-(), etc.
Still I feel this pressure in my stomach. Like every other day. Cannot forget. Seeing her everyday at work is something I cannot run away from. And this makes it really bad. I see her, say hello, etc, but I feel sad, cuz she ain't with me anymore (guess she feels the same way, from what I hear and see). When she's not around I miss her so bad.
Again - I cannot sleep (barely sleep 2-3 hours per couple of nights), work suffers great from that, even though I made myself to work harder - it's not good enough... cuz I make advertisements for TV, and this is something I need creativity for. Now it seems lost. Like everything I gained in order of creativity, since I started out with her, is lost... I'm back with almost a year ago.
Dunno what else to share.... my sexuality is a disaster - don't/can't feel attracted to any other girl, cannot masturbate (yes.... ), and sexual pressure is so high too.
Looks like I'm going mad.... Tried so many things. With no/almost no result!
Yours,
RU
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