Originally Posted by Chad Prigmore
It's sound to me like you need to look at the world with a new pair of glasses. I was in the same frame of mind at one time - and it was a gift because I learned to see all that is wonderful in life in spite of the negativity that can cloud it.
You don't need to set and acheive goals or do any of the worldly things that so many get caught up in trying to find happiness and meaning. Everything we need is already inside of us and it just needs to be accepted and let out.
We are spiritual beings having a human experience - please don't let the human experience destroy your spirit.
Sigh, i guess the ones who knew what it takes to kill yourself aren't here to help me.
But the thing is, I don't see the point of life without goals, or without desires. On the other hand, I realized that it doesn't mean anything even if I did have goals, AND achieved some or all of them. Neither side of the coin are pleasing, and thus the conclusion is that I am better off dead.
Originally Posted by Hollistic Star
1. An inward approach. Understand where these thoughts come from and learn how to deal with them. Probably no more than a few of hours a week of focused work.
I know where they're coming from, its the very realization of human existence, hell why should I bother continuing living ? What's the purpose of actually putting on some pink glasses and pulling out of the "gutter" ? None.
I seriously don't see how a professional would help me. He'd probably just give me some lame pills.
I had an extensive discussion with a ... friend of mine, sort of. I knew him for a long time over the Internet, he lives in a different country, but we are kind of soul mates. Anyway, he told me that my problem is that I'm pretentious and that I think I'm deserving of certain things, like being successful in a certain area, or having a better life, and that that is a big problem for me. You don't really know me, but lets say that I'm sad for failing in pretty much anything, be it video games, socializing or being smart. Is it because I think I deserve I should be the best ?
But then I thought, if he was right that wanting something = thinking I deserve it, it's even shittier living a life without thinking you deserve anything :/