People who have not yet begun on the path to awareness try to "convert you to believing" their stories because they always are looking for more validation to their stories -- you provide your tacit acceptance and support of them by complying when you "believe their stories." What you mean when you say "convert you to believing" I call "buying in to their frame." While aware people identify with consciousness, unaware people identify with their minds. They create stories that are their perceptions on life. Unfortunately, they do not see their paradigms as lenses through which they view their world, but rather, themselves. The mind is always in a precarious situation, because it is not real. So it always seeks to distract the unaware through tactics like diversions (new life adventures) and support (from the unaware around it).
Right now you write about going through a period I went through myself. You say that you are vacillating between being happy and unhappy, sure and unsure. Is it really YOU that is vacillating? Or are you undergoing shifts of awareness and unawareness in perception. I recommend reading the Power of Now to learn how to consciously invoke awareness whenever you would like. Secondly, I recommend issuing an intention to eventually bring more awareness into your life whenever possible. Allow it to manifest. It will.
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