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Originally Posted by AliB1959  Questions - how does one slow down spiritual growth? It can feel so awful/painful/strange sometimes. I've been afraid that I'll be misunderstood and locked up or medicated even more, when this is just a natural and desireable process (IMO). |
Unless you are institutionalized they can't shove the medication down your throat. I guess the only question is do you think you need medication? Also growth can be painful but so can not growing, they both have costs and benefits. In my opinion I LOVE growing. It may bring about "different" types of challenges but I would rather deal with different challenges and feel better and better than to deal with the same old ♥♥♥♥♥ and feel unhappy all the time. And growth doesn't have to be painful all the time. Marianne Williamson has said something that I have never forgotten. We can learn through either love or fear. It is also said we grow from either pain or insight.
Maybe you could stop trying to grow in any other area of your life and first focus on "not caring what others think/want from you." and your inner confidence. This will help. Matter fact anything you focus on will help. Choose something, one thing and go after it. IMO
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Originally Posted by spacedout someone who has reached pure awareness would say.
Can you tell us, exactly, what you have been doing to arrive at that state?
Did you meditate? If so, how? Did you use any guide to help transcend the ego? |
I am not sure I would say I reached pure awareness, I do believe I am going in and out of extreme awareness at least in regards to myself. My awareness is not want I would like it to be with say, watching others and observing everything.
For instance while driving, I am completely aware of what I am thinking in some aspects. What my feelings are, what negative thoughts and positive thoughts I am not having,etc. All the while I couldn't tell you what I did while driving from point A to point B.
So in other words yes my awareness has turned inward in some aspects and rather dramatically or more than I am used to but I have a long ways to go.
I can tell you what I have been doing. I took a course recently by Marcia Martin called the Power of You. Which really focused a lot on communication, verbal, non verbal, speaking, listening, acting. And all of it was done in a way were it came from the belief that "we are all one" and "we create our reality" (not new concepts to me).
After opening up to the possibility that I MIGHT be able to have GREAT things in my life and my future CAN be different than my patterns of the past. I began watching all "the movies" again. The secret, what the bleep, further down the rabbit hole, your immortal mind.
But most of all I think the biggest thing that has happened is I am entertaining the idea of surrendering to the universe and trusting what it brings to me. I say entertaining only because it comes in waves and like I said I go back and forth from surrendering to trying to control and manipulate my life.
I believe its just been years of studying the mind, myself, personal growth, and spirituality. Maybe I am slow and it just took me awhile because even though I have known some of this knowledge for years, the last few weeks I think is the first time I am actually experiencing some of it.
You know the whole idea is like, you can be told over and over again how to drive a car and you can read every book there is on it, you can memorize every single part of the car and how you will use it but until you get into the car and drive it, you can't say you truly know how to drive a car.
I can't say I am completely "driving the car" yet, but I can say that I am in transition of getting into the car and truly learning how to drive it. Studying it before hand does help when you hint bumps in the road, though.
Boy can the first time behind the wheel be bit scary, or maybe exciting!