Thanks for the replies everyone. This has helped me to not worry so much about it. I have hovered between atheism and agnosticism, I would have to side on the side of agnosticism, because I truly "don't know", and I don't see a problem admitting that.
Angela you helped to clarify things for me with your definition of a personal God... because from my background, when I take out the god of the BIBLE, who is that personal god, then I'm not talking about god anymore. For me that word can only be linked to the Biblical god, It's all I've ever known.
I feel whatever "it" is, it is much bigger than that. So in a way I've transcended the concept of God, altogether, in my own way.
Being someone who continually questions their own spiritual beliefs IS a hard life. It's worth it. As long as I accept I'll never know everything, it makes learning about what I can know about, more fun.
And that's the point of this. I'm tired of my spiritual pursuit being motivated by fear and confusion. It should be about tapping into my own best self, and living a better life by discovering frames of mind that speak to me, no matter where they come from.
I guess I felt that I had to pick and choose. But I don't have to. I don't have to join any club except the club of cylon. I don't have to prove my metaphysical beliefs/notions to anyone. Until recently I felt I did... but I don't. I don't need labels anymore. Labels are only there to aid you in explaining things to other people... but I'm doing this stuff for me, not to prove anything.
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Originally Posted by Yev  If you believe god created the universe, who created god and who created his creator? Fortunately, when you read the various mythologies from around the world it is clear that all the known gods were created by man. |
This is what I mean, when we are talking about God, we are talking about human beings. The word God has lost all meaning for me. I don't really know what I'm trying to say here, using man made words and all. But I feel like I'm onto something. I'll be reading this thread whenever I feel it's necessary to define myself.