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TiffyLove · 04-08-2009, 01:12 AM

This past week or so has seemed to be a bit insane for me.

I feel as if I am losing my mind.

It's almost like watching my mind battle, my ego vs spirit/god/love whatever you want to call it.

Before I would just act from either, now I am watching it go on and have become so aware of my thoughts and feelings. My sensitivity has increased to everything, including what I put into my body, sleep, exercise, thoughts, words, etc...

Before this happened I felt pretty stable and loved where I was headed. But this past week and half has me twisted. If this is my brain rewiring or in the midst of my "flowers" having as much strength or over powering my "weeds" mentally, well this transition process is crazy.

There is no drama around it. I don't have any self pity or don't feel I am being a victim about it. I just think this is a wild ride and wonder if anyone else has experienced this.

PS. I have been learning about the mind, quantum physics, my spirituality, personal development, etc. for years now. But recently I have been having insights like crazy and my life seems to have a feeling of being uprooted, I have no idea where it is headed. Exciting and scary, I just wish it would get on with it! Out of transition and into the "other side" of life (living from love and god). Right now I am observing the battle and the ups and downs (which I haven't experience such fluctuation in years). Thank goodness its without drama and I can just observe it.

Example one day I feel so confident trusting the universe that great things will happen in all areas of my life, I get excited feeling free and a feeling I can't explain.
The next day or even moments later I am scared and become aware of my thoughts of "life manipulation", (ie. If I do this, then this, I should say this, then maybe this)
And then later I move back to faith in love and the universe.

Maybe this is the first time I have ever allowed myself to truly believe in the divine intelligence and that I could just surrender to it but my mind(ego) is putting up a fight. GOOOOOOOOOOOOO SPIRIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Or maybe just maybe... I am truly losing my mind.

04-08-2009, 01:12 AM	#1 (permalink)
TiffyLove Senior Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Posts: 402	Losing my mind This past week or so has seemed to be a bit insane for me. I feel as if I am losing my mind. It's almost like watching my mind battle, my ego vs spirit/god/love whatever you want to call it. Before I would just act from either, now I am watching it go on and have become so aware of my thoughts and feelings. My sensitivity has increased to everything, including what I put into my body, sleep, exercise, thoughts, words, etc... Before this happened I felt pretty stable and loved where I was headed. But this past week and half has me twisted. If this is my brain rewiring or in the midst of my "flowers" having as much strength or over powering my "weeds" mentally, well this transition process is crazy. There is no drama around it. I don't have any self pity or don't feel I am being a victim about it. I just think this is a wild ride and wonder if anyone else has experienced this. PS. I have been learning about the mind, quantum physics, my spirituality, personal development, etc. for years now. But recently I have been having insights like crazy and my life seems to have a feeling of being uprooted, I have no idea where it is headed. Exciting and scary, I just wish it would get on with it! Out of transition and into the "other side" of life (living from love and god). Right now I am observing the battle and the ups and downs (which I haven't experience such fluctuation in years). Thank goodness its without drama and I can just observe it. Example one day I feel so confident trusting the universe that great things will happen in all areas of my life, I get excited feeling free and a feeling I can't explain. The next day or even moments later I am scared and become aware of my thoughts of "life manipulation", (ie. If I do this, then this, I should say this, then maybe this) And then later I move back to faith in love and the universe. Maybe this is the first time I have ever allowed myself to truly believe in the divine intelligence and that I could just surrender to it but my mind(ego) is putting up a fight. GOOOOOOOOOOOOO SPIRIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or maybe just maybe... I am truly losing my mind.