 Awareness With Other People
I've known for a while that I can be very aware of myself when I am alone but when I am interacting with other people I lose that awareness very easily. It's as though I enter the role I subconsciously know that I must play in my relationship and I lose the ability to watch myself as I do it. I'm able to exit this frame and become detached again while with others but only with a great deal of effort and concentration. And to my knowledge I have never been aware of myself for a long period of time while talking to others, only while quiet. Does this happen to other people? Are there any tips to improve my awareness around others? Of course, I consider awareness like a muscle and strive to exercise it as much as possible, especially when I am in a social setting. But I don't know how to stop this almost automatic loss of awareness and entrance into this relationship role.
BTW I was extremely baked (on weed) the other day and I lost awareness in the manner that I do when in a social setting. I noticed myself lose the ability to watch myself and enter a state of mind where I could only react to thoughts rather than watch myself react to them. I understood then that my awareness is my (I guess consciousness wouldn't be mine, would it =p) most prized asset in life.
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