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Originally Posted by Stephen0001  I have read every book out there when it comes to taking control of your life.. Napoleon Hill,.. Carnegie etc.
Though I'm still young ( early 20s.. ). I started reading these books years ago and although I've made progress, I am so unhappy with where I am. Most of what I've read, including Steve Pavlina, has made a point to say - everything starts with finding your purpose in life.
I've tried for years to write myself a perfect mission statement.. but they are always flawed.. And after two or three days of working really hard, I say " well if it's not a perfect plan.. then why the hell does it matter anyway? " and I give up.
I write in a journal every night, and for literally years I have been very unhappy with my lack of effort. It's as if I read just enough self help, positive thinking books to keep myself going " oh.. Steve you can do anything!.. you have so much potential! , but I've never put forth enough effort. My mind is saying " You can do anything if you work hard", but I just don't do it.. What the hell?
When I tell people this they say to chill out and relax! After all I'm only 23.. " You're so young... there's so much time for you left!" But I feel otherwise. I know my time is running out.. and I just wish I would finally change.
Anyone else going through this? It's like I'm always looking for another article or book that's going to change my life and get me into action.. but I've read them all and still can't seem to break that barrier of "waiting". When I look back on my journals from 3-4 years ago where I wrote " I HAVE TO CHANGE!! NOW!!" .. and realize I've really done very little towards that end, it's depressing as hell and makes me wonder what is wrong with me. |
Just like to say your definitely not going through this alone, your post totally resonates with my current situation and shares many similarities...we are even the same age!
I too like yourself am fiercely harsh on myself over personal achievement or lack of, every single day I spend most of my time reading articles on how I can change but getting nowhere, I invest so much energy into this but with no return it is utterly exhausting emotionally.
I like yourself feel that unless I know EXACTLY where i'm going or how i'm going to go about a task i'll make a half assed attempt so I dont even bother...its going to take a lot to let go of that and just start things and see where they end up, outcome dependance...we rely on it and have to let go!