I've been where you are. You may be questioning whether you're really as smart as you thought you were. Maybe you're wondering if you can achieve the goals put in front of you. Maybe you're thinking that you're not as smart as the other people around you. It's called an identity crisis.
Find someone to talk to. A close friend who's willing to just shut up and listen and not say anything is good. Your school probably has a counselling service, look them up, they're great to listen to you.
Or write about how you're feeling. The better you get this into words, the better off you'll be six months down the road.
I have limited information here, but your point seems to be that you're not as intelligent as you thought you were. Of course, that depends on your definition of intelligence. Read here:
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my relationship with “intelligence” became very important, because sometimes I believed that intelligence is all you need to get good grades, and that my grades were a reflection of my intelligence and other times I believed it’s just doing the work (it’s a combination of the two). Since I was praised for my intelligence as a child (usually when I was right), I came to believe that intelligence cannot change, that if you’re smart enough, you’ll get really good grades, and I felt bad on some level that I’m not a genius like Will in Good Will Hunting. The other belief I was holding was that intelligence means being right, and that you either get a new concept or you don’t; there’s no in between, which prevented me from pushing through my confusion to learn something if I didn’t get it the first time around. I also came to see my intelligence as fixed (it can change) and that my results were solely based on my abilities, and not my effort. Here’s a quotation from the above New York Magazine that describes me perfectly in this regard:
Dweck discovered that those who think that innate intelligence is the key to success begin to discount the importance of effort. I am smart, the kids’ reasoning goes; I don’t need to put out effort. Expending effort becomes stigmatized—it’s public proof that you can’t cut it on your natural gifts.
It’s interesting to look back on my life and wonder if being told I was intelligent has affected things. One of the reasons I used to be so particular about spelling things correctly, forming proper sentences and making sure I’ve got my facts straight is because I wanted to convey the impression that I’m smart, and I had this belief that people who don’t do those things aren’t. I wonder if my interest in science was at all directed by the belief that I am intelligent and intelligent people are into science. I can see that belief causing some people to become dogmatic about science. I sometimes see this pattern in others as well, when they try to assert they’re right because, I believe, they don’t want to seem unintelligent.
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If this isn't your deal, then lemme know, I can take another crack at it. I've helped a number of students with student-related problems. You can also PM me if that's more comfortable for you.