Dear Emaaki,
you are at breakthrough point where your choice make ur destiny.
the best thing you did tht u posted ur question.
the Universe want to be more than who you are as a person that is y u got in this situation. May be later you realize that he didnt suit you. and universe wanted you to be a more powerful and lovable person.
yes a breakup makes you dead from inside. and this is the opprtunity to know realise the death in daily life.
now many people give time to read self help books. you were on the right path. it is time for you to handle your frustration and trun in to golden light inside you.
you are going to be a new wonderful human being.
i can suggest you some book that helped me.
one is heal your life by louise l hay.
other one is practising the power of now by echratt tolle.
you have takend risk to love someone and you will get reward form your inner soul. i think ur life is more meanings and challanges that make you worhty and success.
actualli i understood in my life that every outward succes goes into failure. and you are so honest to urself to realise that you failed somewhere.
so the meaning of ture success come and grab you.
and also it is in the images that we see the past situation and make it bigger. it is in our ability to brust those unwanted images like a baloon. and make images of ourselves as smiling and contribuiting. see u.
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Originally Posted by Emaaki  I want to because of all the decisions i have made over the past 3 years. i read a self help book, and took it word for word, and tried to become perfect, as well as pleasing everyone around me. I have now developed into a person thati hate. i met who could have been the love of my life, but since i had changed, i didn't suit him any more.
I NEVER WANT 2 BE WITH ANYONE ELSE THO!!! IT WAS MEANT TO BE HIM!!!
I have also thrown away alot of my youth as through tryng to be perfect, i matured way too much, and also crushed alot of my dreams. i am no longer that sweet girl who shoud have been patient with herself, i am an old minded freak who just managed to through away the most important person in the world to her. And no, i can't get through this. also because I have ruined too many things that i can never reverse. I am a failure, and I am going to end my life, as i am already dead inside anyway. |