Thanks guys, I'll give it a shot...
Thanks for all the other suggestions too. The issues in my mind seems to be of ex-relationships, and that has been my biggest weakness, I always seem to take a year or so to get over relationships, no matter how long they last.
Recently I've discovered through reading Eckhart Tolle's work, and I agree completely, that I've been focusing on the "content" of my mind/ego, whereas the problem is the "structure". Even if I remove all concerns/pain/regret etc over my relationships, my ego is still there and is still searching for other painful memories to relive.
The only difference is, since relationships are my weakness and its such a jumbled mess of emotions, when I relive these memories, it hurts a lot more. And also, I have A LOT of these, and controlling my reactions to them (by observing them, seems to work the best for me) doesn't work all the time as sometimes I forget and then identify with them again. Like, I don't even notice and then hey - I'm in the middle of a past pain again. This happens like every 5 minutes, that's how bad it is when I'm lying in bed trying to get to sleep (much less in the day).
It's causing me insomnia and is affecting my day activities as i'm too tired. Technically though I think I am over the last relationship. It's just my ego / painbody (if anyone has read Tolle)looking for things to identify with.  |