This is good - you are becoming aware. It isn't an automatic change, it happenes gradually and increases over time. Now that you realize what you have been doing, and are having a dialog with yourself about it, be a silent observer behind yourself and notice when you do things on automatic. You will catch yourself doing the same thing again, probably multiple times, and you must stay aware, and say to youself in your head, "oh look, I am trying to manipulate this again.. ok.. step back.. what is the truth of this...".
By doing that you will be able to make changes and correct your 'automatic' and unaware behavior that is not serving you or others.
Good luck!
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